sheer exhaustion.

I don't know what it has been with the last few weeks, but I am completely exhausted. Emotionally and physically. i've been having a hard time getting my spirits up and my body to follow. I think that's also why I've been slightly less diligent with blog-land. ANYWAYS. So I haven't posted a picture of Chet (James) in a very long time. I also haven't seen him in quite some time. As sad as it is, I only know this through facebook, but he is moving out of new york this coming weekend. I had some damn good times with this kid. Drinks, coffee, hangouts, partying, photo shoots. Everything. I remember on this day we snuck into some lot that was under construction in my neighborhood. The area was littered with needles, used condoms and other assorted grossness. He is one of those people who just doesn't give a damn and we made the best of it anyway. James, if you are reading this I miss your face. A whole lot.



Yet another person I have not seen since my photo session with him. I think this was in like 2007 or so. Colin had that sexy bod though that I couldn't resist and needed to photograph back when all I wanted to do was photograph scantily clad boys. Now, not so much. While I do enjoy it every once in awhile. My intentions and inspirations have definitely shifted since then. One thing that hasn't however, is my need to connect. Every subject for me is like a mini-therapy session or something of that nature. I latch on in any way I can to pull out some sort of emotional connection. Even if it's something as small as a slight grin or a hug at an end of a session, in some way, it makes me feel complete. I always feel slightly odd when I talk about stuff like this because it really is intensely personal. While not necessarily visually pronounced in my images, it is 100% part of my process. Like today for instance, I was on a job and something just clicked with that woman I was photographing. I wanted to know her life story in the half hour I had with her. In the end, we parted ways with a hug, and it just put a smile on my face. Makes what I do that much more worthwhile.

Rambling I know.

p.s. A Serious Man was probably one of my, I don't know top 10 movies of all time. Maybe that will change a few weeks from now after it settles in a bit more and I can really examine that statement. However, the movie is absolutely incredible and if you haven't seen it yet, do yourself a favor and go to theater. It's incredible.

p.p.s. Shooting for a new client in the am tomorrow. This is one I've wanted to work for since I knew I wanted to do editorial work, so I'm looking forward to it. I'll let you all know how it goes.

night.